DOWN AGAIN

I AM LITERALLY SO HUNGRY MY STOMACH HURTS. LIKE IM HOLLOW AND I HAVE THE SUGAR SHACKS AND BABY COKE NEEDS.. BUT IM DOWN TO 202.6 LBS, SO IM ON THE BANKS OF THE BULLSHIT RIVER TODAY. LETTUCE TURKEY TACOS, BOILED EGGS, TURKEY SPAGHETTI WITH ZUCCHINI NOODLES, BLUEBERRIES AND LACROX WATER WITH CRYSTAL LITE. NOT RUNNING OR EXERCISE YET.. CEPT FOR SEX. I AM OK... I AM! WE TOOK THE WEEKEND TO GO TO THE RIVER AND KAYAK WHICH IS ALWAYS FUN. ANYWHERE I CAN STAY CLOSE AND TALK AND LAUGH WITH MY HONEY IS GREAT. I SOAKED UP ALL THE VITAMIN D THE SUN WOULD GIVE ME..YES ALL OF IT! YOU CAN NEVER GET TIME BACK WHEN YOU LOSE IT, SO MY ARMS WANTING TO FALL OFF FOR THE FIRST 20 MINUTES WAS NOT A BIG DEAL. IT GOT BETTER AS THE DAY WENT ON AND I FIT IN MY YAK, SO THATS A PLUS, ALTHOUGH MY BIG ASS ALMOST CAUSED ME TO TIP OVER A FEW TIMES BUT I KEPT IT STEADY. IT WAS EASIER THAN I THOUGHT TO STAY ON MY DIET THIS WEEKEND TOO. JOEY IS EATING PRETTY MUCH WHAT I HAVE BEEN COOKING AND OUR PICNIC WAS PACKED WITH HEALTHY SNACKS. I MADE GARLIC SHRIMP AND BROCCOLI FOR LUNCH ONE DAY AND IT WAS THE WORST THING I HAVE EVER TRIED TO EAT, GROSS! SHRIMP IS NOT MY FAVORITE AND THE BROCCOLI WAS MUSHY..I WANTED TO PUKE. MY COOKING SKILLS HAVE GOT TO INPROVE @ SOME POINT SO WE DONT STARVE. AS YOU CAN TELL IM NOT MY USUAL KIDDING AROUND SELF BUT THAT WILL COME BACK IN A FEW DAYS WHEN MY GUTS ARE NOT CAVING IN ON THEMSELVES. GROUCHY, HUNGRY, MEAN AND I HATE EVERYBODY RIGHT NOW.. INCLUDING MYSELF. STAYING STRONG ..I GOT THIS!

Drowned, Dead, & Washed up on the River bank like a whale

well hello there... I bet you can never guess what bullshit is going on this year..yep I'm phat! I have a gym in my house but never use it, I never run anymore, I eat like I should two or three days a week and the rest is spent with full blown hand motions of cramming in food food glorious food into my mouth! I am @ 208.6 lbs..gross, this winter has been a lay in bed 24/7 season.. except when I am working and when I am working I am sitting on my ass in front of a computer. Sex, which is still awesome, is the only exercise I get and no way am I giving up that. Although I do not have a clue how my sweet husband even finds my vagina anymore because it is lost under the rolls of thunder thighs and tumor belly that I hide under cute clothes and a tan. How sexy am I? not at all, but he has been eating with me and we are both a couple of fat asses. now..how bad am I gonna let it get, back up to 250 lbs?..298 lbs was my heaviest point before my lap band surgery, I seem to be well on my way! I am watching myself get bigger and acting like its not happening, until today. Today is the day this bullshit ends! I had to walk up my street to get my car and I almost fell over! I was breathing like I was having a panic attack! So good bye doughnuts, fuck you cupcakes, never again baby cokes..you can suck it! I want to live and I want to live being comfortable in my clothes because I'm not buying new bigger ones ever again. I still want to be laid up next to my sexy husband all day everyday just not like a beached rotten whale. ok lets see me not die..may 20 2019.