Cold turkey...

Okay day three of cold turkey livin... no sugar cept for my truvia on top of my gross strawberries :/and in my bitter coffee..no bag of popcorn sitting next to me in the car..no cookies..no doughnuts...no dove chocolate bar the size of my head..What I've noticed is the headache..the sluggishness..the anger..ohh the anger. So i have just a couple of days left to get thru the withdrawal and then I'll be back to the normal me minus a few lbs of fat hanging from bugs bunny arms and hulk legs... I chopped up my apple and threw it in the blender with some truvia..instant applesauce.. yum. .in my mind i thought strawberrysauce even better. ...nope they still taste like shit.. Lets face it i will smell a strawberry all day but im really tired of eating the damn things and pretending i like them because somebody somewhere at some point said they are super good for you. Well mail my share to all the starving little children out there cause id rather suck on a lemon.

Love Makes Me Fat..

Ahhh love ... its almost Valentine's Day my favorite time...well my favorite candy anyway and my true love..Speaking of true love..my new beautiful and sweet friends Lindsey and Amanda @ my awesome as shit new job have introduced me to these tiny little things called thumbprint or fingerprint or willie wonka print i dont know cookies AND OMG THEY ARE AMAZING!! (So are my new friends) :) we walk to the bakery and buy a dozen and i have all 12 crammed in my stupid fat belly by the time we get back to the office. Theres also this wonderful chocolate icing thingy that if heaven was real it would be dead square in the middle of it..so Lins decided its name is chocalate heaven.. (i agree) theres also huge bear claws that would be the claw of a bear if the bear was made out of a huge fuckin doughnut!  Yummy.. so after three weeks of craming a dozen cookies in my face at a time or a chocolate heaven cloud or two and a few lunches of poison and these things called chicken nuggets  (your right amanda they are nuggets of something but its not chicken. .i just threw up a little) i have gained another 8lbs :/ For everyone who is on this weight lose journey or i dont want to die from being fat plan just know that if you stop keeping track (write that shit down!) of the poison you eat daily or if you get lazy and stop planning your weekly meals YOU WILL GO RIGHT BACK TO FAT TOWN! Your body does not give a shit that you only had a boiled egg and green beans for lunch if you eat or swallow whole a dozen cookies it only runs to your fat cells. It also hurts when you run and the extra fat flops up over and over again and hits you in the top of the head :/ it also makes your pinkey toes fat and you have to buy new running shoes. Sooo moral of this blog. . Love of candy love of friends love of job....it all makes you Fat. So back to my real eating plan. Lets do this ...

No new floaties allowed..

Its jan 1st 2015. Long time no blog...Everyones resolution involves some sort of change bullshit. Oh lets be better people..lets get healthy...lets do better. Its been a year since I put on my blue running shoes and my whatever running hat and just took off. I stopped eating crap and crawled out of the bullshit river I was drowning in and onto the muddy banks of *oh shit this is hard*. I went from one or two migraines every two weeks to one a month and faced things headon like a' boss. Change makes everything wonderful. Today I stand on a mountain top and scream...BULLSHIT! The weight loss and being able to run without falling down is great and I can be honest when I say it feels good not to have my stomach stick out further than my tits..but its hard and the truth is the food is not why I have migraines! Some foods do make me have them but they come from out of nowhere. There is no reason for them that I can control and they are a curse that no amount of running can stop. And they should kill me like a train hitting you head on and full blast. No normal person could survive a true one. I have had my fill of them. So its been a year of running and it hurts by the way..my feet my knees my big ole ass all hurt..but it feels so good..:/ I have had too many migraines to count lately and trust me you do not run after one because sneezing hurts so bad you think a dagger just flew thru your skull...and starving to damn death because all the poison you want to eat makes your muffin top appear out of nowhere. ..It takes a week to get two pounds off and two days to put ten pounds on. While your body fights you every step of the way you keep  swimming thru the bullshit. In the front row seat of it all you stop.. you look around and you realize. .life is so great. .everyday is fun and laughing loving and on occasion eating a big ole oreo cookie is freaking fantastic!! We have all had problems and lost people who are precious and made new friends thru the year so lets do 2015 like no other year we've ever done..snoopy dancin' with class! One day one minute one giggle at a time with no floaties allowed..doggy paddle thru the bullshit like a new born baby.. totally love your guts friends and im so glad your all a part of it♡♡♡