You get thru the days with the willpower you need ..you dont overload on food but you feel that belly hurt that tugs at you all day. Your proud of yourself because you havent numbed troubles with treats or chocolate youve actually felt life and its woos. Just have one.then stop. Just have a small bite.then throw the rest away. If I could control how much I eat I wouldnt be a fat ass. I wouldnt have this addiction. I would be 'normal'. I would love without fear. I would question nothing and enjoy everything. After three days of stress .hurt .worry and migraines (small ones)... it hits me.. an animal that lives in me rears its bitchy head. Food will stop whatever emotion I cant control. Publix has a wonderful medicine counter. 'Can I help you..she says..yes I say..I NEED THAT M&M COOKIE FOR MY NEPHEW!!!!! LMAO... MY JOSH IS 25 YEARS OLD AND LIVES 50 MILES AWAY FROM ME... I NEED THERAPY JUST TO REMOVE THE SHAME.. I threw the cookie out the window..I littered on my beautiful lake. Shit...
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