Dog paddle

Drowning..thats what I'm doing. I am drowning in all the bullshit that passes through my day. Me? I'm smiling while eating shit with a fork. I am fat..was born fat and since I have recently decided to not die from fatness.. IM STARVING!! My worst fear is that now that I cant eat my feelings I have to think about them and possibly deal with them. How?? Beats the hell outta me since I'm always the girl with sunshine and rainbows shooting out her ass for everyone else. When it comes down to the wire..cake...candy or whatever I really dont have friends that ask how i am .... so since I have noone to tell how I'm feeling lets blog this shit :) not drowning alone feels like fun!  Woot woot!!